Mum got a phone call today from her consultants secretary. She has an appointment on monday to meet with him. This seems very quick to me..........I'm scared!!!!!!

:-(

I've never known a few months like it. . .horrendous! Mum got told on Friday that they want her to have an MRI scan, appointment came through on Saturday, it's for tomorrow. The fact that the appointment has come through so quicky is really worrying me and I mean deep in the pit of my stomach worry.
To top it all off, my aunt died yesterday afternoon. It's my mums sister.

It's all starting to hit us all bad now. Never seen my brother cry before until yesterday.

It's been a hectic few months, but as you can see I'm still standing. LOL!

Mum went back into hospital yesterday for another op on her bladder. They took a deeper biopsy to make sure that her cancer hadn't spread any further than what they thought. It was hard to get any news from the doctors, nobody was very forthcoming with any. This morning when the doctor came around, he asked mum how she was feeling and because she was feeling OK he said that she could be discharged, again without telling her anything. Mum was sick of not knowing, so asked to speak to him again.

He told her that the results of a CT scan she had last week was good, there was only slight scaring on her lungs, but nothing else nasty was showing up. GOOD RESULT!! She asked him about the procedure she had yesterday and he told her that it's got no worse, so we're also claiming that as a GOOD RESULT!! He did tell her that bladder cancer is a friend for life, which we already knew, but he also said that they would be looking after her. ANOTHER GOOD RESULT!! She will have to go back in 3 months for a cystoscopy, but we've decided that we just need to be positive and look forward to the future now.

I've had to learn to cook over the last few months. To the left is my attempt at a shepherds pie, which, even if I do say so myself, was very delicious. The whole lot was polished off by my dad and brother, well they had the most anyway. lol!

I can manage a roast dinner as well, well a sort of roast dinner, the cheaters version. Aunt Bessie is a god send! :-P



A few days after we had our big snow fall you could still see some along the mainland. It looked really beautiful, so I thought I'd take a photo.

College work has been a no go just lately, I've tried to make a start but it's been really difficult. So from tomorrow things have to change, head down and looking forward.........these assignments won't write themselves. LOL!

I've failed to keep this blog going, life and it's struggles have just taken over.

Finally, we got some snow, all of an egg cup full. LOL! The picture to the left is a view (if you can call it that) from my bedroom window. My car is the blue Ford Focus.

The photo's to the left and right are things that I have passed everyday since Friday and before that for the week when my mum first got admitted to hospital. The image to the right is just outside the hospital, it's pencils that move around in the wind. To the right it's Agnes the wooden horse, situated just in the corridor outside my mum's ward.

Unfortunately she was re-admitted last Friday with breathing problems again. To cut a long story short, the hospital discharged her without diagnosing exactly what was wrong with her. A couple of weeks ago they diagnosed and treated her for Pneumonia, but it turns out that due to the chemo wash she had for her bladder cancer, her immunity had dropped and it caused her to develop an allergy of some kind to our bird, which made her develop some sort of fluid on the lungs. They are now treating her with steroids, 12 a day. The last chest x-ray showed that her chest is clearing with the treatment, so fingers crossed she continues to make good progress. She also had a CT scan today, but we won't know the results of that for 24 hours. We had to get rid of the bird, which was a shame because we'd had him for about 10 years, but mum's health is more important.

Speak of the devil, here she is to the left, in her hospital bed. I think she'd kill me if she knew I put this picture up, not exactly the most flattering. LOL!

Anyway, she's home now, got discharged earlier.......Thank goodness. :-D

xxx